What to do...?

Fear holds me back; the fear of making a decision. -__- What do I want to "be" when I grow up? Of course I want to write books, but breaking into that sort of job can be difficult. Especially for me...who has been writing CB for years now. Keane was saying to me he knows lots of people who only write, but that's after gaining some ground isn't it? I feel like if I'm going to be a "writer" I need some form of income until I can publish my first book.

And then now I'm discovering that teaching is actually pretty difficult to get into. There's a lot of processes that seem totally confusing to me when I tried doing research online. And now I have the opportunity to volunteer in a classroom to gain some experience, but I don't know if I should...

Maybe I should be writing instead?

"Experience is always good."

Yeah, it is...isn't it? But what should I do...maybe just worry about finishing CB. Maybe then, everything should just fall into place for me. Aim to being a teacher, and then if I finish CB and I end up having to focus on that, then I will...?

Time. Things take time. I think I constantly fail to realize this. Confidence, motivation, knowledge, constitution. Can I really take a step up?