Essays over

And now I must prepare for the exams. OMFG I'm so screwed. The only one I think I'll do OK for is Med Lit. Love that class. Mostly because I followed it pretty well...

Damn you myth and dystopia! I am sooo going to fail. I guess at least I wont fail the classes. =.='''

Again

Nothing concise. All copy and pasted from various sources, my own words sandwiched in between. A collaboration of thoughts collaborated from others' thoughts into eight pages of nonsense.

This is what I do.

Hm

Mom just went away in an ambulance. She's okay I think - maybe kidney stones? I still have to do that essay. Feel a little shaken up. It's always hard to be stronger than your parents, to see them weak and suffering. I just always suck it in and try my best.

Wish me luck

a lot of time was spent thinking...thinking...thinking...staring at the screen and reading and thinking and accumulating and now my eyes hurt and my brain feels dry and although i'm peering through that crack my eye is wobbling and flexing, struggling to see straight

Wow

I feel like I've been banging my head up against a wall for hours upon painstaking hours with no success until now. Suddenly, a crack was formed and peering beyond I see the future, the future so which was once so impossible to reach now close and graspable. How did it happen? I don't know. But I feel more calm despite my headache. Despite wrapping and folding, turning and mixing, fluxing and joining together themes, ideas, that somehow fit together but not in the way I want.

And yet here again I am!

ta-ta

Back

Soo I'm back to bitch about having to write a paper again. I wish I could just easily *write* it, but there's something inside me that's just like cringing at the idea. I don't want to. Plain and simple. No. Don't want to write. Can't make me. It's like I have a five yr old child inside me who refuses to do something.

I'm not five though and I'm aware of this. So even if it's pure fantastic shit I should just do it and shut my trap and not complain right?

I wish I could do rather than just say. But being here doesn't help so off I go...