languid

Rising up from lungs that can hardly pump out breath. Lost in the words of...everything else. It's so painful...but all you can do is struggle on. Struggle On. say it again. Struggle on.

slowly...

..but steadily?

Haven't started writing - still -...I think I'll get it done though. Well, I'm pretty confident I will. I just feel so uninspired.

This weather...man, it's depressing.

and...

the agony begins ALL over again...

Guess gotta start with the topic.

More of me going crazy coming your way soon.

done!

nuff said.

another essay to go.

2 pages in...

4 more to go and it's almost 9pm.

Feel relaxed, sleepy, actually. I'm not sure how this'll pull through but at least I'm not panicking anymore.

Random thought:

What'll happen when blogger dies? Will my words die with it? Makes me wonder if it was better to write it all on paper...what is the internet, anyway? It can disappear in the blink of an eye.

Tired, drained, full.

Relaxed, sleepy.

Must write approx. 4 more pages.

Later

10 minutes later

The question:

Can I finish on time?

No the more important question:

Can I start?

-stares...

at essay outline-

me bitching...again

holy god all I have is a thesis and a little bit of outlines - but but but.

Is it really that I can't do it or that i don't want to? I think it's entirely the latter. Oh my LORD CAN I DO THIS!?

It's always like this...I just got to write, just got to write...

UHHHHHHHHH

What am I writing again1?!?!

Igha igggffff...fugeaaaaaa......................MSN DISTRACT ME!


-explodes-


p.s be ready for more of these

kiou kiou

Oh blogger...I always turn to you when lost or frustrated.

Today I am frustrated. I can't build that bridge - I can't make those connections. Well maybe I can, but I'm struggling and I don't want to. I don't want to essay!!!!!!

But I should, it's due tues and this is the only way I can do it.

Essayyy essayyy

rawrrr

Pattern? I think so - I always do this to myself.

Ok this term come sept, I promise to keep up with my readings. Seriously.

p.s I married a whore named Steph and Jamie doesn't know about it. For now she's living in a carriage but I plan to buy Brightwood Tower and keep her locked up in there...so that no one can ever have her but me...heh..heh...heh

plans...?

I want to graduate asap, so I'm thinking of quitting chapters. The only thing is I like it there a lot...but...well, I don't know, I don't think I can do 5 courses and work.

I'm going to see if I can apply to osap, if anything to pay for the cost of living. Yeah, seems like the best plan.


Goodbye chapters! Hello future!.........dur