Don't Look Back

But I do, I always do. And I'm filled with regret, rage, and hurt, but a veil of indifference covers it all. I'm too sentimental, I guess, and I'm living in the clouds. What can I do but what I've always done? Take one step forward, forgetting all the betrayals, the mistakes, the decisions I've had to make, and yet carrying them with me on my back while the rest of the world revolves without a care.

I sound pessimistic, upset, even, but I'm not really. For those brief moments when I peeked into someone else's life I was angry and sad all at once, but now that I'm looking away I'm fine again. Betrayal? What is it anyway? Life isn't like Alanna's, although I wish it were. Isn't it so easy to make sense of life in a novel?

and

In a single moment, suddenly I am calm and confident. Where did it come from? And will it last?

Another Essay Rant

I just needed somewhere to go WTF!!! I mean...I *GET* everything he's saying...but he's saying SO MUCH! There's too much information and I'm not exactly sure what I'm writing about here.

I guess I should just...begin? See how it goes? I don't know....


A suspicion of meta-narratives...
The loss of transcendence...


I should use WiiFit.