Is it getting to me? Am I really depressing?
Why am I sad? Why shouldn't I be?
I don't know how to be what I'm supposed to be. I'm sorry I'm not fun, eccentric, exciting, interesting - beautiful?
Why do I keep getting upset about it, I don't know. I should just be content to live with my video games and books.
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I know that I get upset with myself some times because I feel like I'm not the person I should be/want to be. I know that I'm really lucky to have the things I have and be able to do what I do, but sometimes it just doesn't feel enough. Maybe that's not the words I'm looking for. Sometimes it just feels like there's something more or something else I'm supposed to be doing or need to be doing but I don't know what it is. And the more I think about it and the harder I try to figure it out, the more foggy and distant it becomes. I think part of it has to do with our age and not having the means to do what it is we want or something like that.
I'm not totally sure we're talking about the same thing, but whether it is or not, know that you're not the only one who feels that way or the only one who goes through this. Everyone has different ways of dealing and different ways of coming to terms with things. If you ever need someone to rant to, you're more than welcome to send me an email or something. Hope you feel better!
hey thanks for your comment! i feel like i really don't deserve since your concern >.< esp. since I haven't really visited your blog in a while. sorry you have to listen to my emoness...but thanks, i appreciate your support :D
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